What Does It Feel Like - To Lose a Partner...

A friend posted this today and wow. Yes, that's so accurate. There is a reason that some people describe marriage as "Two-becoming-One" and "My Better Half".

I've dated people that it hurt to leave but not in this way. I lost an essential part of myself when Ryan died. And it's excruciatingly painful in the aftermath of that. 

I've tried over the year to write out how it feels myself. To understand and hopefully heal through seeing it penned from my own brain. How are you changed once widowed?

"But To Be Alone" 

"The 'Worst' Loss"

"Suicide Changes You"

"My Life's Best Part"

"Unique and Devastating Loss"